S*x and troubles
Men know how to do this.
The situations I am currently experiencing could have happened to me in my hometown, and I would not have been surprised. Also, it would have been very cool if it had happened somewhere in Paris.
In fact, even in the most challenging situations, the most enjoyable thing is listening to advice from friends. I listened to the advice and opinions of three of my friends, and they turned out to be quite different. The first said to do whatever I wanted, not to regret anything, and to keep an eye on things. The second said the exact opposite, that I shouldn’t have done anything to make it come to this, and that it would only get worse and more unpleasant, so it was better to just accept that nothing depended on me here and not torment myself. The third said that the person was simply offended by me because I had joked too harshly.
I really don’t want to seem dependent or think more of a person than he’s worth, but damn, that’s how it happens. At first, you tell yourself and him that you don’t want anything more in terms of romance or any kind of mutual dependence. “I just want to have fun and do crazy things without feeling guilty about it” I said. Then it turns out that you’re not strong enough yet to turn your desires into reality.
Men know how to do this — disappear after any hint of romance, or well, just sex. And even if you don’t like him at all, you’ll have to think about him because he doesn’t text you after that incident, whereas before he texted you all the time. I mean, I didn’t really like him, I just liked his cool vibe, and I barely agreed to meet him a week and a half later. I agree more with the opinion of my second friend—he just closed his gestalt and you’re no longer in his field of vision. And we were having so much fun! A little bit of everything, good and bad, guys. Everything else is just boring and exhausting work on yourself.
After all, everything in our lives will always happen over and over again in a circle if we don’t look at the situation from a different perspective at some point and make a real effort to work on ourselves. Unfortunately, we often choose to “stay in the loop” and only come up with more comforting and pleasant stories in our heads. This is just an attempt to control the unknown and not feel pain or anxiety.
I, in turn, said that I didn’t want to go back to my teenage years, but accidentally ended up there again. Some kind of wild desire to go out, meet new and completely crazy people — that’s what drives me now. Warsaw, you’re no different from my former flings.
I could spend a long time discussing with my friends why and at what point everything went wrong, but then it’s better to switch off and watch a TV series with them... bake a big and weird chocolate cake... or... go out for cocktails... but it’s a pity that after the last party, my friends now think they don’t like drinking. But they will never, ever stop joking about FWB.
